all these made my tears roll. all these that happened to me. so fantastic. my life cannot get any better than this, trust me.

people talking behind your back, people backstabbing you, and people who get into categories they want just because of biasness. how fantastic life can be, i really dont know. i only know my life is just so freaking screwed now that im so numb to whatever that is happening. to those who got into BSP/CLEP, congratulations.

yet for me, yes what cherie said was right, it is all fated. so what for go against fate. i really dont know cherie. i really dont know. i dont know what to do. and what if i really cant appeal in. i just know that .. all these i've been working hard for, trying to do my best, is all bullshit. because your life and streaming just gets fated by certain people who are so obviously biased, and freakingly unfair.

i just wish pictures wasn't so influential.

i just wish i never looked at them.

we made it there, when we thought we wouldnt. we helped one another in the darkness, when we could not see anything but feel. the tiredness, efforts, missing of sleep etc just for this drama fest' 09. some people may think: its just drama. what for? we dont even have to bother. i guess that was what all of us once thought. but it has become different when all of us came together to work for a common goal. yes, our goal is to get into the finals, and eventually win the title of champions for drama fest 09. the first and last drama fest '09. but the feeling really changes when everybody comes together, and when what all of us are thinking are no longer to win, but just to go out there on stage, regardless of whether you are backstage or acting, and just to try your best in everything you do.

some people may not be acting, some people may just be doing costumes, designs, props, sounds, lighting, publicity. but so what? i believe all of us have tried our best. and screamed our hearts out for everything we did. i dont know how the entire class will be feeling now if we didnt get into the finals, and get to perform one last time, try hard together as a class for one last time next thursday, 5th nov 2009. the last day of school, the last time ♥205'09 will ever strive hard together again. so what if we are just moving the props? everybody matters in this. every single person.

me and jamie were holding hands so tightly when they were about to announce who would proceed to the finals. we were so afraid that we wouldnt, even though all of us already said we tried our best etc, i know there's room for improvement for nothing is perfect. but i know deep down in every single fiver heart, we want to win this. we want to proceed on to the finals. even though we will probably have to stay back many times, rehearse again and again after school, but i guess we wont mind all these as long as we had another chance to work hard together with our class. i guess to us, that's all that matters. really. thats all that matters. just to work hard together as a class again. to have fun and strive hard again, as 205'09. because this is the last chance and we really want to do everything we can to grab hold of this.

how we wish that time wouldnt pass so quickly. i just cannot imagine that the last day of school is during our last performance. regardless of whether we win or not, i really hope all of us will be smiling, because we all have tried our best, regardless of which committee we are in. i sent the entire class a sms, but not all of them replied. i didnt do much for this drama fest, so i guess this is the only thing i can ever do for them. to know that they rock. to know that i love them so much, not because they are the coolest, cleverest, prettiest class. but just because they are 205'09. just because of this point, they make me head over heels. i love them just so much. so much that no words can ever describe it.

i really do. from the bottom of my heart. when we screamed our class cheer just now, i really searched my mind for all those memories we had as a class for two whole years. i remember the times when i was injured and they always asked if i was okay, they took care of me and even brought a wheelchair. i remember the times during inter-class games that we screamed our voices to cheer for our class until i had high fever and very serious sore throat the next day. but still, it was definitely worth it. i remember the times when we screamed whenever someone won a prize. i remember the times that the class were so noisy until i got super pissed. i still remember what i always used to say: '' fish market ah? '' how typical. i really missed our class cheer alot. and the three cheers to 205 and the unite class cheer really almost made me cry. but i managed to hold my tears back. i looked at almost everyone when we were screaming the cheer. i was thinking: how much will i miss these special people when we have to part? i've got the answer. alot.

these cheers meant alot. we screamed our hearts out when we knew we got into the finals. we screamed so loudly for our cheers. i guess that was really the loudest i heard these cheers, apart from the time last year during choral and drama night that these cheers were so loud that i almost burst my eardrums. i believed we screamed from the bottom of our heart. that reminded us that we are a fiver now. and will forever be a fiver, regardless of how old we are, regardless of which class all of us go to.

yixian, pangpang, and whoever else who cried. dont cry anymore. it should be something all of us are happy about, entering the finals for dramafest. i know that we are so gonna rock the house. i know that we are so gonna put in our 200% best and strive to win. even if we dont win, at least we know we tried our best, as a class. as 205'09. as what i always say

not strong enough to accept harsh facts.

not strong enough to accept the truth .

how lousy can you get lingting.

total failure.

somehow in one way or another,

i know it.

these memories will stay in some part of our heart.

some part of our minds.

even if it is just 2 days and 1 night,

its enough,

to last us till sec 1 orientation.

we will last through,

and look forward to the fun we're going to have once again.